thank you so much, petya!! i really appreciate that <3 being less self-judgmental and giving myself more grace has been on 2023 bingo card... it's hard, but i do hope i get there. thank you so much for reading and this lovely comment :)
Loved reading this as I’m going through a moment of heightened jealousy. Thanks for sharing your experience, how great it is to embrace our very human reactions with self compassion and use it to guide us forwards
Your substack is so moving. Your work feels like holding a mirror to the parts I dislike the most about myself, dissecting them, and learning where they come from. I do not know how to capture how much this, your video "i wish i were a skinny white girl", your reflections on the immigrant bargain, and all of your law school and law content have helped me and my relationships. Many thanks!
Thank you Cece for being so candid, as always. Happy to be one of your 3000 (!!) subscribers & always thrilled to see a newsletter from you on my feed.
At 24, I didn't know what I wanted to say to the world. I'm just starting to find my own voice now. There are gifted people in all walks of life, and that's certainly true in creative outlets, like writing. But unlike some other creative outlets, writers need to have something to say; that's to say, they need to have some life experience. For that reason, I believe a precocious pianist is so much more common than some profound 9-year-old novelist. It seems like in Zoe's case things came together pretty early for her. The jealousy still creeps in from time to time, but I tell myself--things are still percolating for me.
Incidentally, I'm jealous of your illustrious career!
The feeling of profound jealousy for wildly different lifepaths that I never had the courage to pursue is something I get way too often. I really appreciate you talking about it in such a transparent way. Jealousy can sometimes feel very isolating and be combined with shame and a desire to bottle it up. I'll adopt your approach instead and do my best to figure out what it's trying to tell me.
Self-awareness is everything, Cece. We learn, we grow.
Give yourself some grace! *I* love YOUR newsletter.
thank you so much, petya!! i really appreciate that <3 being less self-judgmental and giving myself more grace has been on 2023 bingo card... it's hard, but i do hope i get there. thank you so much for reading and this lovely comment :)
Loved reading this as I’m going through a moment of heightened jealousy. Thanks for sharing your experience, how great it is to embrace our very human reactions with self compassion and use it to guide us forwards
i'm so glad it was helpful! i feel like the fall is particularly a jealous period. you're exactly where you need to be <3
Your substack is so moving. Your work feels like holding a mirror to the parts I dislike the most about myself, dissecting them, and learning where they come from. I do not know how to capture how much this, your video "i wish i were a skinny white girl", your reflections on the immigrant bargain, and all of your law school and law content have helped me and my relationships. Many thanks!
wow, that's such high praise, lis! i'm extremely flattered and so glad that i can provide you with something of value. thanks so much for reading <3
Thank you Cece for being so candid, as always. Happy to be one of your 3000 (!!) subscribers & always thrilled to see a newsletter from you on my feed.
what a coincidence--i'm so thrilled to have you here as a reader!! thanks a million for taking the time to read and leave this note <3
At 24, I didn't know what I wanted to say to the world. I'm just starting to find my own voice now. There are gifted people in all walks of life, and that's certainly true in creative outlets, like writing. But unlike some other creative outlets, writers need to have something to say; that's to say, they need to have some life experience. For that reason, I believe a precocious pianist is so much more common than some profound 9-year-old novelist. It seems like in Zoe's case things came together pretty early for her. The jealousy still creeps in from time to time, but I tell myself--things are still percolating for me.
Incidentally, I'm jealous of your illustrious career!
The feeling of profound jealousy for wildly different lifepaths that I never had the courage to pursue is something I get way too often. I really appreciate you talking about it in such a transparent way. Jealousy can sometimes feel very isolating and be combined with shame and a desire to bottle it up. I'll adopt your approach instead and do my best to figure out what it's trying to tell me.
There's nothing wrong with envy. It goes away overtime as you write more books. Just sounds like status anxiety, we all go through it. I sure did...